Won't Break
Sean Okin
Aug 31 2004
Woke Up This Morning too much on my mind
Caught somewhere between my heart and my head
When can I trust my intuition
And know it’s for real and not superstition
I know finding the answers
Is like finding bombs strapped to the back of my head
I know life gives you questions
Give me something to solve all this tension inside my head
I’m paralyzed by this confusion
And so terrified of how I got this lost
Retracing my steps I found new religion
So how did I end up nailed to this cross
CHORUS
I won’t bend you won’t break
You won’t bend I won’t break
I don’t know the answers
I can’t see the light
Bash my head in darkness
Will this love wait
I don’t know the answers
I can’t see the light
Bash my head in darkness
Can we trust each other?
CHORUS
I won’t bend you won’t break
You won’t bend I won’t break
SHUT
Lyrics By: Sean Okin Jan 23, 2002
why are you so scared?
what is it I do?
why do you come to me
then run like a scared little bitch
Do I remind you
of something inside you
you won't admit to me
the evil that takes over you
CHORUS:
feel me in you
can't get me out
I'm taking over
you opened the door I'll slam it shut
Let me in your room
let me in your bed
let me in your soul
let me in your life then kick me out
you're fucked up
but won't admit it
put the blame on me
or am I as fucked up as you?
CHORUS
shut, shut, in your fucking face
Now you can't hide it - I'm all up inside it
now you've been infected - can't be corrected
locked in my prison - kill me and I'm just resurrected
RUN!
Let me in your room
let me in your bed
let me in your soul
let me in your life
CHORUS
The Same
Sean Aaron Okin
April 2004
Look to the stars to see where my heart is today
Been kissed on and fucked with
Then went dark to meet you half way
You underestimated me my slave
Now it feels so good to cash in on those promises you made
CHORUS:
When it’s all a game
Words don’t mean shit and they’re all the same
So what is left to believe, just fuckin leave
Cause I gave all of me to you
Twist my mind so then I lose all faith
In everything I am life has no taste
Gave my heart but it don’t make sense
Help me figure this out
We walk in this jungle together, hold my hand
What God to I pray to for this shit I don’t understand?
Pushing and pulling I love you too much not to stay
A girl who keeps changing her mind – are we the same?
CHORUS 2x
One And Only
Lyrics: Sean Okin
October 2004
Like the flame that killed the dark of night
Like the burn that was another life
And it’s all up to you
I was deep inside myself and lost
So take control I took the loss
It’s all up to me
So let it take hold
Trust the searching soul
(you have to give in)
Let it take control
Let it take hold
To my one and only prayer that was answered
So you cross over the other side
And taste all that was so confined
It’s all beyond you and me
Now I live and die and fuck and cry
Cause now I see beyond the lie
So let it take hold
Trust the searching soul
Let it take control
Let it take hold
To my one and only prayer that was answered
Won’t Forget
This
Sean Okin January 2004
(whisper) can’t stop breathin 3x
I was down but the game is on
Another day living in the sellout town
Lay down another track on this rail to fame
You better learn quick how to say my name
I never conformed to this city of sellouts
80’s rejects and high school dropouts
a punk selling (sex) pistols, begging for change
is the shit I drive by on the way to my game
Too much pressure, not much time
One more minute
You’re barely breathin’
This knife is deep in
You bet the wrong horse and your cash I’m stealin’
(still breathin)
Now I’ll go my way this time (My direction)
Cut you off take back my mind (takin back what's mine)
Never let you pierce my skin
Won’t forget this pain I’m in
Lights are down and the mic is on
Not holdin’ back til the song is gone
Another bitch on the ropes
dark horse outta hope
And a dream put to death
sent back outta breath
Beggin for a mask full of O2
And little slut your sorry ass could go home to
To cry all your tears and your sad excuses
Back to your life of domestic abuses
Pre-chorus
Chorus
Down on the floor where a fighter’s not
supposed to be
See the look on my face?
I’m waiting here…waiting here… waiting…
CHORUS
Where I stand
Lyrics and Music: Sean Okin
October 2004
There you go again
Changing your colors again
So here I stand
Unaware of what comes next in this life
Left Alone
Searching for more answers
Feel it creeping in
That sadness that just leads to danger
There it goes again
Like someone cut the light off
Was so good and then
Like you wanted revenge on someone
I can tell you now
No one’s gonna break this silence
I can tell you now where I stand
No one ever knows what it’s like to be on my side
I can see that you don’t understand
And Now – you caught me by
my feet again
And Now – I’m feelin like I’m back on the chain
I can tell you now
No one’s gonna break this silence
I can tell you now where I stand
No one ever knows what it’s like to be on my side
I can see that you don’t understand
MY CONDITION
Lyrics By: Sean Okin February 9, 2002
Here I lay lost and hurting
I gave my all now it's thrown away
see me now whithered and broken
not a chance to let this happen again
another piece of my mind is corrupted (NO)
and so the peace is interrupted (I won't let you see in to me)
spirit in my mind is seducted
nothing wrong with me
I lay around lost in my thoughts
I'm lost and found and never set free
I'm a broken down lost soul searchin
for the drug that will sedate my thought velocity
another piece of my mind is corrupted (NO)
so the peace is interrupted (I won't let you see in to me)
spirit in my mind is seducted
nothing wrong with me
Now I look at myself - i can't fake
every bad break I get I can't take no more
I don't, you don't know what's wrong with me
internal war
I won't let them in - no admission
you won't see inside - on my condition
(LEAD)
I won't let them in - no admission
you won't see inside - on my condition
So let it rain because I surrender
I can't fight this life anymore
break the spell life cast upon me
don't act so surprised when I hit the floor
BLINDED EYES
lyrics by: Sean Okin - May 9, 2001
If you could see all the way inside me
would you want to look again?
would you have to try to change me
most of these things I can't even comprehend
sometimes I'm self destructive
I fall to pieces and lose control
will you want to blame me
or will you try to fix my burning soul
I know it's hard to be with me
just try to understand me
bend with me and don't break
CHORUS:
I'm an unfinished painting, the sun shines it's raining
But I can see no compromise
can you help me in my head, be my memory when I'm dead
can you see through blinded eyes?
Can you help me with my problems
keep my secrets, be my friend
will you try hard not to judge me
I don't know where it all begins and where I end
wasn't born a complication
just trying to clear the confusion
where did it all go wrong?
CHORUS
Tear my heart to heart out coversation
what can we do so it don't bleed
I tried so hard to understand me
can no one fix this broken man?
NO CONFESSIONS
lyrics by: Sean Okin
Jan 24, 2002
You came to this world with God's intentions
you live your life nowwith no confessions
:
life tears your soul out (so why you walk away)
until you sell out (from what you want to be)
you took the wrong road, joined life's addiction
look for sedation from the world you live in
life tears your soul out (so why you walk away)
until you sell out (from what you want to be)
My girl with the sickness is ripped up in her dress
and left to cry out in the dark
you love her and leave her, why not try and beat her
just a whore might as well leave a mark
No one can help her just pay for the fuck sir
wash your hands on the way out
sold it all for the cash bitch did you buy all that you wish
before the whole world went dark
So you made life
So you gave life
So you loved life
and now you leave life
life tears your soul out (so why you walk away)
until you sell out (from what you want to be)
Theft
of Imagination
Lyrics: Sean Okin
Music: Sean Okin / Steve Braverman
December 2003
Another lethal dose of theft of imagination
Mass produced for the trash of a nation
Following the latest trend, that’s what they always do
It doesn’t fit on me but it looks good on you
All my life you’re telling me
(what) Goes in my mind – (what) I need to be
Shit will never go away
Can't put up with you another day
So you think this is all just another fucking
game (NOT ME)
The world is all based on luck and we’re all the same (NOT ME)
Make excuses for all of your losses (NO DETERMINATION)
If I did it all again
I’d push much harder
Not hear your compromise
Can you see what’s in these eyes
Another lame excuse for life of moderation
Try to bring me down to your excuse filled situation
All my life you’re selling me
Some life I never want to me
Can’t get you to go away
Won’t take your shit another day
CHORUS
If I did it all again
Id push much harder
Not hear your compromise
Can you see what’s in these eyes
why you always telling me
some life that I forever never wanted to be?
CHORUS
INTRUSION
(My Life)
lyrics by: Sean Okin January 2002
Wake me do you feel it get inside you
taking over like a thunder
mortal, institution, revolution
blinded going under
broken is the silence bring the violence
to a lost humanity
get ballistic, realistic
It grows in you and grows in me
you're life is just wasted unless you get in to mine
Locked out, not a thought about
no way out of your closing walls
better change that, here's the payback,
watch the playback it may cost your life
can you afford that? do you believe it,
can't conceive it No Law No Crime
with your heart shut, you're a Christ slut,
with your wrist cut bleeding - out of time
you're life is so boaring unless you're fuckin with mine
Keep out of my life
Get out of my head
Don't need to guide me
hear what I said
Keep your hands off me - you can’t control me
Wake me do you feel it get inside you taking over like a thunder
Locked out, not a thought about, no way out of your closing walls
you're life is boaring unless you're fuckin with mine
CHORUS
Don’t need to guide me, keep from beside me
Keep out of my life
Say a Prayer
Lyrics: Sean Aaron Okin Sept 2 2004
Dare to be different and ignore all the warnings
Never Complain and start drinkin in the morning
Won’t promise nothin’ so I hear no complaining
I punched out the clock – I’m on a permanent vacation
(whoa Now)
Mother Mary Say A Prayer
Motherfucker better beware (whoa Now)
I’m livin this life just for me
Get in my car let’s make some history
Kids on the loose and the ambulance is chasin’
Don’t follow to close or your second hand
It’s not suicide if I know it won’t kill me
It’s not in my life unless it’s gonna trill me
(whoa Now)
Mother Mary Say A Prayer
Motherfucker better beware (whoa Now)
I’m livin this life just for me
Get in my car let’s make some history
MEDICATED
Lyrics: Sean Aaron Okin - March 2004
Slowly becoming outdated
Living behind the bars you created
Slipping intoxicated
Doctors have deviated
So where does God live in this place?
Sipping and drinking
And smoking not thinking
You worked so hard to build all of these walls
Recreation and abuses
Blame and excuses
What the fuck did you take to get
So Numb and defensive
With all of your riddles and Rhyming
Falling down is not climbing
The cover up is so contagious
And the high feels so dangerous
All the drama and losing
No wonder life got so confusing
Where did you end and who have you become
So obsessed just to be so comfortably numb
You should be growing and changing
Not just shit rearranging
I’ve been to close to a place
That keeps anticipating something to go wrong
Blame it all on the man
White trash with a lawyer who understands
Can explain all of your problems
Big holes in small condoms
And children on TV and you’re in a Panic
Running from yourself and caught up in your Xanax
For a pill you keep lying
For a pill you stop trying
Can’t complete the next line
When there’s no living there’s no dying
Your eyes are all dialated
Since when did you become so deflated
So anxious and tired
Like the bottles of pills you fell in love with
you're Quickly expired
So really why am I writing?
Why am I trying?
To stop your blind faithless ass
From this valium dying
It’s slow and you’ll get there
Just stay lost and you’ll find it
Trust me you’re right up behind it
And all of this life you wanted to escape
You will finally know how to rest in peace
How free do you feel getting just what you wanted
There’s one born every second
Another self haunted, taunted, flaunted, and Dead
DON'T EXIST
Sean Okin - Feb 26. 2003
I'll write this love song to a girl who don't exist
I'll dream of you cause you're everything on my list
So if I treat you good will you treat me bad
if I'm good to you will you make me mad
are you wired right or just like the rest
can you be what I've always needed and solve my hearts unrest
I'll dream another night
cause you don't seem to be around
guess I'll swallow a little darkness
and let loneliness be my sound
guess I'll put off being happy and welcome this gift
of being alone
so let me drink down some more of this bottle and become more like a stone
So if I looked at you would you look at me
would you tie me down then set me free
will you fill me up then drain me out
will you make me whisper then make me wanna shout
can you be what the promise of love is supposed to be
or reality laugh at me again and push me towards insanity
seems the harder I try, the harder it is to get by
the more I stay to myself the more I sit around and wonder why
KEEP
HOLDIN' ON
Lyrics by Sean Okin, November 1997
Hey Little girl you know it's alright
You can close your eyes now
I'm not letting go by setting you free
we'll share our dreams - in our God made destiny
If time tries to take you away
look inside and you'll find the way
I won't let you be lonely
won't forget what you told me
and I'll keep hangin on
Live for tomorrow, keep dreamin today
That first look in your eyes, I still see in
the night
I saw forever inside them
can't understand it sometimes, how can this be?
Someday we can tell the world our story
Love waits in an endless ring
cure the days behind you give me everything
Sometimes I will breakdown
think my heart has been let down
but know that I believe in you
BULLET
Lyrics: S. Okin - July 1995
Music: S. Okin and Cut Throat
Put a bloody steak through my heart
when you fuckin' toar it all apart
sucked the breath right out of me
Put a bullet inside of me
Made a flood in my eyes
kissed my sanity goodbye
no sympathy, don't throw this dog a bone
all you whores just leave me alone
Bullet - inside of me
Put it- where you can't see
Bullet - inside of me
So why am I trippin? who gives a fuck
kiss my ass n' wish me luck
keep laughing while I lie and bleed
put a bullet inside of me
Chorus
Love is just another sick addiction like fire n rain
Pounding on your fuckin' brain
so now while you point and stare
at me, your sign that says beware
too many times in love and hate
will cause you to suffocate
chorus
dirty bitch you made me sick
dirty whore you made me cry
dirty slut you made me bleed
put a bullet inside of me
SHALLOW
GRAVE
Lyrics: S. Okin - March 1997
Too much Hypocrisy
Mind pollution is suffocating me
(I can’t fucking breathe)
You know right from wrong
Is this the way you wanted it to be?
(You’re making me bleed)
Shut your lip, bite your tongue
So many words and nothing done
Now I’m gone – back to my fucking way
I will not lay down in your shallow grave
Vicious words to criticize
Get your way don’t matter truth or lie
(live or die)
Your words make my teeth grind
Hate me and you don’t know why
(won’t testify)
More money is food for your disease
Can’t see the world blinded by greed
So I’m gone – back to my fucking way
I will not lay down in your shallow grave
Back to the people, back to the streets
Aint gonna hang from your Judas tree
I’m gone – my way
Don’t wanna hear what you say
Can’t Live Here
Lyrics: Sean Okin October 2004
I was waken just a dream before you
A night worth waiting you don’t want more
Took some time cause I needed some inner clarity
Cause now this mess I’m in is a time bomb ticking inside of me
Tell me why it has to be like this
Tell me why I can’t feel anymore
Tell me how to put myself back together
Tell me
Why does it have to be this way
Why can’t you hear the things I say
So in my face you won’t back away
I can’t live here
Why does it have to be like this
Why do we have to live like this
So why do I stay in this
I can’t live here
I burned a hole in my head on these situations
The closer I get the more I find complication
I tell myself in time it all will be good again
You’re gonna win so don’t do yourself in
PRE CHORUS
CHORUS
ere
MY PARADE
Lyrics: Darwin DeVitis and Sean Okin
What is it that makes today
better than yesterday
when all around the world is afraid to change
what makes a heart beat strong
who put in you right and wrong
a terror that defeats you hurts for so long
I will not be denied
the questions inside my mind
it's just a matter of time
to take away my sufferin'
I don't know if I'm right in what I want to say
everything's wrong with the world today
are we all just evil? am I just afraid
can we stop this rainin down on my parade
a leader in a hidden place
intolerence, a master race
time for you and me to make the change
I will not lay down and die
the power is on my side
it's just a matter of time
I'm going to set the world on fire
I don't know what we'll do
for sins we've got to pay
Time is runnin short, but we won't fade away
Some of us are evil, some can show the way
to stop this all this rainin down on my parade
PULLIN'
TEETH
Lyrics: Sean Okin 1998
Blacked it out now I remember
2 time twisted wicked trick
bleeding on your bed of roses
hit me blindside with a brick
I know the pain inside from what you gain
Chorus:
Ashamed, outraged, compromised
Your play on words is just another lie
Beat down but I’ll walk all over you
I’m pullin’ the teeth you lied to me through
Pray for you, you prey on me
A victim, a romance casualty
So betrayed – I don’t know why
Let me go, still never free
Bait and switch
Sold me out 2 faced bitch
Chorus
Never should have never trusted you
Could have been so much
You act so innocent
Now I know what they meant
LOCKDOWN
words and music: SEAN OKIN
JAN '94
I'm back - back right where you want me
your probation is weak interrogation
got no soul, you lost control
and now I chose my destination
you're sick and weak
build your walls to restrain me
attempt to program my brain
or flush me down the drain
I crossed your line so fuck you and your conformity
CHORUS:
Lock down break free
can't restrain me
power shut down
you can't keep me down
there's a new force and authority
domination - end your conspiracy
i stick my knife through your crown
send your worthless life of corruption down, down
CHORUS
I'm right where you want me, you're too weak to break me
spilled your blood right on your crown - a power shut down
SO AWAKE
Sean Okin
September 2004
I was scared, But not afraid
In the valley of decision I found my way
A wounded soul, but a strong resolve
I found what woke me up inside
So deeply strong
So it brought me to my knees
The strength inside had left me weak
Tried to complicate
And you simplified
It’s all connected to the places we hide
CHORUS:
I won’t pretend
I’m all aware now
You took me from my wake
I won’t play dead
I won’t be scared now
Cause now I’m so awake
I can’t pretend
Won’t let this end now
Believe in something don’t let go
It’s gone too far
Not been too long to remember
What it’s like to be on your own
I was down, But not afraid
I think I thought I let you down that day
I wasn’t therem But never far
Something from another life
Showed me who you are
I’m holding on no matter how tight my grip
must be
So tight you can barely breathe
CHORUS
SUICIDE
SOCIETY
words & music: Sean Aaron Okin
September '93
Blame it on the innocent
assassinate the government
power surge / killing urge
on the verge of total destruction
hatred made him inferior
see his enemy in the mirror
crimes of hate
our final date
self fulfilling fate of Armageddon
chorus:
Trial by insanity - suicide society
life for land and liberty - suicide society
fight for a lie, destructive murder minds
NOT
YOUR DEVIL
Sean Aaron Okin APRIL '94
Why don't you leave me alone?
Change or face ruin
You're stuck in confusion
no conclusion but some sick illusion
trapped - corrosion - explosion
Out with the old, in with the new
I'm today you're time is through
my drug's illegal but your's is lethal
bring a criminal label if it rocks your cradle
your brain is fucking dead
if it's my way you say no way 'cause it's the law
no thought - brain rot -cheap shot
it this the U.S. or U.S.S.R.?
so vindictive / can't just let live
take and won't give / so offensive
sick of you trying to trespass on my beliefs
you burned my music you fuckin' thief
your religion runs the world you live in
ban my entertainment with some words of god that you invent
I know you're no fucking angel
I'm not - I'm not your devil
I'm not your devil - your soul's up for sale
stop this fucking witch hunt
you built your own hell
Your last connection to my life? Buried 1973
they looked down on you like you do me
same things you condemn you now accept
your morality we all object
CHORUS
CHARMED CURSE
Sean Aaron Okin - July 2001
To one lover I’m the savior
To another the snake
I’m everything you want me to be
To feel alive, to feel awake
I lived through my horror
To release you from your pain
I’m the one who’s laughing
While your crying in the rain
I’m your every nightmare
I’m your every dream
I’m everything you’ve done forever
And nothing in between
I’m the black I’m the white
I’m the shadows in the night
I’m the cold chill in your spine
I’m the face in the darkness that you always try to fight
I’m the time that comes between
The lightning and the thunder
I’m the hand saving you
From forever going under
I’ll make you feel the darkness
And make love in the rain / make you love the pain?
Tear your from your solitude
And force you to live again
When you want to lock yourself away from
the world
I’ll be your intrusion
When live is becoming not worth living – I’ll be your solution
There are so many colors between black and white
That make you blind from confusion
Drving you to live, drving you to die
I’m the pain in your heart and the tear draining in to your eye
Fight
(In The Club)
theme for WILD GIRLS FIGHT CLUB
Lyrics: Sean Okin October 30, 2003
Music: Sean Okin, Jeff Cohen, Steve Braverman
Get up and step in and back up all the shit you
talk to me
Someone gonna win someone gonna fall
Shut up and step up and throw down – what was your prediction?
Someone gonna win someone gonna fall
Did you walk in the wrong door?
You in the wrong place
Get up and step in and back up all the things
you talk to me
Someone gonna win someone gonna fall
Shut up and step up and throw down – what was your prediction
Someone gonna win someone gonna fall
CHORUS:
Fight you Better Fight in the club
In the Wild girls fight club
all about the cash when I whip your ass
And I knock you down and I send you back
With an eye that’s black and a heart that’s broke
It’s too late bitch
Bring another girl, let the bell ring
Can’t wait to smack you down and hear that fat bitch sing
Losings nothing and winnings everything
What’s my name again? WHAT’S MY NAME?
CHORUS
Not lookin for much, Just a little distance
Better back the fuck up
Before I make a mess of you (4x)
CHORUS
Amplified Souls...
April 2004
Lyrics: Sean Okin
Keep the angels medicated
So they don’t have to feel the hate we created
Keep the lost souls amplified
Who would cry
If you stopped breathin
After all the things you’ve done wrong
Never thought you’d live to be
Living right where you belong
Keep the armies dedicated
So they don’t have to wage the war
That your ignorant God created
So when did your higher power become so jaeded
You’re life became a cult
Freedom got compromised
Evil child became adult
And adultery
Is killing you and me
Gotta set it free
Before it fucks with the plan
That lives inside you and me
Gotta look that evil bitch in the eye
And chase that fuckin demon away
Before the infection
Gives you a fuckin errection
Then leaves you with your dick in your hand
And that’s the way you die
Where’s your dignity?
Who is the one setting you free?
Isn’t he inside you and me
God fuckin dammit God is alive
Can’t you read through
The lie that separates the good from the bad
Now look at what you just had
And the blue and the green
Bleed to red and what is not seen
When obscenity builds it’s nest
That’s when you and peace are in arrest.
Arrest is shock
The heart stops beating
And then your life pattern stops repeating
So start your fuckin breathing
And keep believing
Type your shit and hit send
And sooner or later you will comprehend
The life that used to be in front of you
Live it now, appreciate what you going through
Sunrise will soon be a lost bet
Like a lost desert, a Las Vegas Sunset
All of your hopes and dream pass away
So live your motherfucking life today.
m.motherf.ing.f.period